stopping and listening

“Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.”

-Chuck Palahniuk

I have spent the past 2 weeks feeling a little lost. Most likely a lot of medical issues (that luckily are being resolved - hooray!) started the spiral. Taking too much too seriously. Not stopping to see the value in the little things.

Good to have a little school vacation time to get back to some reading and writing. I fought a bad case of stomach flu yesterday - but it left after only a day of explosive fury. I wonder how much of it was me mentally purging the past few weeks. I emerged feeling tired and spent, but more open to new experiences. I always seem to get physically ill after mental challenges. Coincidence?

I look forward to adventures and rest. Balance! Onward!